Hard Day

Well. It is turning out to be a somewhat hard day. Without going into detail, I have a health problem that is really making my life difficult today. And while I so much just want to jump up, dust myself off, and rock on with life, my body/mind/heart isn't quite there.

What is there is the many many blessings I have in my life, and my sweet sweet husband. And this great poem I just rediscovered:

What greater thing is there
for two human souls
than to feel that they are
joined for life.
To strengthen each other in all labor,
to rest on each other in all sorrow,
to minister to each other in all pain,
and to be with each other in
silent unspeakable memories.

How'm I doin'?? A Goals Update

I say it's high time for a check in on the goals. Especially since I have been starting new goals, like read this book, and go to an amusement park for my 30th birthday (What? I can plan it this far in advance!?). And since my next birthday (i.e. my original goal deadline) is tra la la about 4 months away. God, I just LOVE birthdays!!! (Can you tell?)

So the list. Let's take a look, shall we?

• Attend retreat. - Well, I've thought about doing this a lot. And really what I need to do is pick one at the local retreat center I like, mail in my deposit, and go. But, haven't done that quite yet.
• Climb a 5.9 - Ok, this is hard because I'm not near being able to do this yet. But, I expect to squeeze in some more climbing in the next few months, and perhaps I can get up to that if I'm consistent. So, doable, if I focus.
• Contribute regularly to 401k. - Rocking out. The amount of money going to my 401k was super painful to watch disappear from the paycheck, but now it's out of sight, out of mind (except for feeling great that it's already doubled what I had when I started contributing this year).
• Do the limbo. - Hilarious. Left over from my wedding. No idea how this will get accomplished (since it's not really a one-person activity). So I need help on this...
• Get better physically. - Slow but sure, working on it every day, with the help of some kickass doctors.
• Go backpacking. - This weekend, baby!!!!! We have no idea if our car (since we no longer have the Subaru) will make it to any decent trails, but we'll be outside, and we'll be together, and that is the only thing I care about. Besides, I love an adventure!
• Kayak to the cedars (near my mom's house). - This is the one most likely not to happen (and incidentally, the one that my mom suggested). I'm just not planning a trip up there right now, so I'm not sure how to make it happen. I'm still up for it, in theory.
• Keep a plant alive for a season. - So, this is always a hard one to define. I mean, I have several philodendrons that are rocking out, but those things don't die. My mom gave us a plant at Christmas that is still alive, although I fear for its long-term sustainability. So, yes, accomplished, sort of.
• Knit hat. - I've knitted two rows since writing this. Unless I break a leg, I can't imagine putting serious time into it. The goal was really to get it done before the winter months, and give it to the homeless, but um, it's March.
• Learn a piano song. - My hubs has. Does that count? Maybe that's what I'll do as a present for when he gets home.
• Print a photo I've taken. - Definitely haven't done, but not for a good reason. Let's say this will be my birthday present to myself.
• Run a 5k. - Crap. I'm further behind on this than I am on the climbing. I could try to run again, but probably not for another week.
• Share poetry. - I've done it, but I could do more.
• Stay on 6 month dentist plan. - Whoops. I'll call before the weekend and make the appointment.
• Volunteer. - Major failure, but I also reevaluated this multiple times and decided our lives were too full. I think I will try to do it once my Friday morning class ends, since I have managed to squeeze something into that time slot, so... why not just switch it over?

Oh man, that felt so good! Looking at my goals is a great way to add some direction and structure to my life, as well as get me excited about following through on the in the next few months. And luckily, I don't feel married to any of them, but they all still seem worth pursuing.

I am also going to add a goal - I read this note, and felt somewhat, um, convicted? I think I scored a 5.5, although NOT entirely because of wedding blog reading. So, in order to move on from the wedding, it's time to get the wedding dress cleaned. HIGH time, in fact. It is still on the back of my closet, just as she says. She's so smart!

Ok, here goes the next four months... I'll keep you posted on my progress!