Resurrection

Perhaps like you, I have an ambivalent relationship with astrology. On one hand, I am clearly a Cancer Sun with Gemini Rising (a deep feeling, nurturing lover of information, comfortable with paradox). That's just obvious. I receive the astrological predictions that float through my world with a mix of attention and amusement. Who knows what it all means? Maybe something! I am always open to anything offering a big picture view on the many whims and winds of energy swirling around us. For instance, Pluto in Capricorn, 2008-2024: 

"Pluto’s transit of Capricorn tends to coincide with the rise and fall of empires, and sees big changes in the rules and structures that shape society in politics and religion. Theories and ideals are brought down to earth and put into practice, and anything that doesn’t work is thrown out – no matter how noble."

Well, yeah. Definitely. That holds up.

So, in looking back at the last time I wrote on this blog, just under 10 years ago, I wonder what astrological cycle relates to the change of that time and where we are now. I remember the me then, and the words sound like a version of me, but so. much. has changed. And yet here I am, back to the same place. 2015/2016 was a clear marker for change in my life: after Trump was elected, we moved to the Boston area, I started a new job, and those things were pretty all-consuming. At that point, I turned to write in my "secret" private blog more (until the fall of 2019), and then that fell off too. 

My writing has continued. I journal. I've written some missives to my community in major moments. My poetry activity peaked around the time I stopped publishing it on here. Thanks to grief, change, and global upheaval, I've had lots to process! ;) And a few nice poets and writers in my world offered fertile space to create and share. 

For the last few years, I've been toying with the idea of sharing my poetry more widely. I sent in submissions to the New Yorker (yes, I know, aiming high), a regional poetry magazine, and was rejected from both. I may still try again at a new venue. 

But a few months ago, I got the clear sense that my priority was just to share my poetry, and I actually didn't care if I got paid (and perhaps prefer to avoid the commodification). So, I decided I should stop trying to get published by someone else and put my writing on a blog. To share publicly and freely. And of course, I already had one... I just had to find it.

It took me a few months to get here, but I knew I wanted to come back to this space, which has been a great place for me to find and use my voice. To resurrect this sweet blog. I just had to fight with Google a little bit to get back in here. But I'm in! I'm here. 

So I have some poetry to share. Maybe I can even get back into longer form writing. I do have a book that I want to write... But I don't really know what to expect from my writing and a space like this at this point in my life. What parts of me have evolved? What conditions in the world have evolved? What about me is still the same? 

TBD. Or maybe I can find some astrological explanation. I'll keep you posted.